Monday, March 28, 2011

My Blog Name

I thought I would take the time to address my blog name: Former Fat Bride or "I was a Fat Bride." I've been getting quite some hateful emails regarding why I picked this name for my blog:

"You know, being overweight isn't the worst thing that can happen to a Bride. You are spreading a negative light for all brides out there. All brides, no matter what shape and size, should feel confident on their wedding day. Your blog does not support this and is very offensive." {exert from an email I've received.}

Firstly, I want to apologize to anyone I have offended because of my blog name. It is not, and never has been, my intention to make anyone feel 'bad' about being overweight on their wedding day. This is just my weight loss journey and I was a Fat Bride so that is the name I chose.  I've had many people tell me that they wish they would have lost weight before their special day. I could not agree more! I wish I had too. That email is correct; every bride, no matter what shape or size, should feel beautiful. I didn't on my wedding day, but I am trying to get to that point that I feel 'good' in clothes and my own skin (as vain as that sounds).  I've never stated in any blog entry that a bride has to lose weight before their wedding day or she will regret it. This is just my personal experience. I'm going to keep blogging about my personal jouney as well. Will I change my blog name? Nope.

Friday, March 25, 2011

Weigh In 3-25-11

This week I am down another -.6 exactly.
Am I happy about it?
Not exactly, especially since I have been tracking on MyFitnessPal all week, staying within my calorie intake and I worked out 4 days this week. I will keep at it though because any loss is a loss and I will take it!
Have a happy, healthy weekend!!

Wednesday, March 23, 2011


My new shoes!!Finally, right?!
You can't really tell by the pictures, but they are Red and Blue!! Gooo KU!!
I went to New Balance to get fitted and these were the first pair I tried on. I tried 4 different pairs, but none compared. I love that these have so much support on the balls of my feet. I immediately went to the gym after I bought them to break them in and get a good run in. Seriously, no pain at all! I'm in love.
I'm a happy girl today!

Monday, March 21, 2011

Running with Dad {week 3}

Sigh. Well, week 3 is over and we have 10 weeks to go. I am still making progress, and Dad is still running in circles around me. I asked him tonight, "This is a breeze for you, huh?" He looked at me, smiled and said "Well..yea..hehe" I hope he's not regretting having me as his running partner!

Saturday- Met up a little later than usual, but ready to go. It was sprinkling outside, but had a cool breeze. This time we ran the length of the fence and a few more yards, turned around and ran back. I was feeling good after this. My leg pains have graduated from shin splints to aching feet. Does this mean I need new shoes? Yes. Tomorrow.

Sunday- Dad was battling some allergies and I was battling some sleepiness :) We didn't make it on our run.

Today (Monday)- Met up after I got off of work at 6pm and went to run. We ran from where we parked to the Pawnee bridge. Now, I know this has no relevance to you since you are not here, but I have no idea how else to describe how far we went :) I won't lie, I did not like this run. The bottoms of my feet hurt and I was too focused on how long this was taking me. In fact, one time during the run I told myself if you keep running, you will be done faster! This seemed to help my mentality. I was able to run more when going back than Saturday, but I still need to step it up. Dad will run all the way back, turn around and run all the way back to me and finish..again..with me!

I'm going to go buy some new shoes tomorrow {any suggestions?} and then hit the gym all week to run. I'll meet Dad next Saturday and we will keep trecking away at our 10k!

Do I love running? NO. Do I love running with my dad to spend time with him? YES. Do I want to lose the rest of this weight? YES!!! See? The yes' beat the no's!

Friday, March 18, 2011

Weigh In 3/18/11

Alrighty, I know I'm only down -.6, but I'll take it after staying the exact.same.weight the past 2 weeks.
Oh, annnnd...
Rock Chalk Jayhawk!!

The Verdict:
Yesterday I posted about my Operation: Peace Out Shin Splints. Happy to report that I got through Week 4, day 1 of C25K and it wasn't bad! I did stop during one of my "walks" to stretch and I was fine to finish. My shins are a little sore today, but I've been stretching like crazy today and I'm ready to get back out there tomorrow morning to run with Dad.
Have a great weekend!!

Thursday, March 17, 2011

Operation: Peace Out ShinSplints!

Operation: Peace Out Shin Splints!!
{the watch is just cuuuute!}

I'm ready...
Buh bye shin splints!!

Wednesday, March 16, 2011


Have I been living under a rock?
Yes, I think so.
I signed up for MyFitnessPal today and I'm lovin it!
I get 1410 calories a day to lose 1.5 lbs a week, which is totally doable.
I think the tools on there are really going to help me lose this last chunk {no pun intended ;)} of weight! My user name on there is alliemarshall627 if anyone wants to be friends :)
I noticed that by noon after I had tracked everything I was going to eat at work that I only had 9gr of carbs left for the day. Ehh..? Apparently I eat too many carbs! I will need to eat lean meat tonight and veggies.

Tonight I'm headed back to the YMCA to start week 4 of C25K. I'm about to show my shins what's up..NO, shins, you will NOT hold me back any longer with my running. I have my IcyHot, Tylenol and stretching regimen ready!
See ya!

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

2011 Goals *updatex2*

Last month I recapped how I was doing with my 2011 goal. It is not mid-March and time to reevaluate..let's see how I'm doing with this goal thing!

Lose at least 1 pound a week until I meet my goal weight of 150lbs. *I haven't lost 1lb a week, I haven't even lost any weight yet this month. I barely lost anything last month either. Still fighting and struggling through this weight los journey..*
Try to cook more and get more creative with meal plans. *I have tried. I'm currently cooking maybe twice a week. *

Stay on Synthroid all year long. *I'm FAILING at this..I haven't got my meds re-filled. nI have no excuses for this..:-/*

Run another 5k. *I have signed up for a 10k for June 4th! You can read about my training here and here*

Get more creative with my blog. *Trying! I do want to "hire" someone to get one of those cute little headers and whatnot :) *

Save $12k in 2011 (that's $1000 a month and totally do-able if we stick to it!) *We have already saved 50% of that goal and it is only March! Very very proud of us on this goal!*
Find another company to work for that I feel happier with. (I WILL have a job change in 2011 one way or another!) * company was bought by a new company and it's been a mess. I hope this new company we were bought by will be better, but so far..the benefits are terrible. $4000 deductible?! really? I read insurance plans all day to know that is not "good coverage." my soapbox!*

Spend more time with my niece and nephew. *I've seen them at least once a week since New Years!*

Grow my Scentsy business *Rough start for the New Year..if I don't sell $150.00 in sales this month I will be TERMINATED..yipes.*

Organize my scrapbooking stuff and finally finish my wedding scrapbook! *Hasn't even crossed my mind..but I still have nine months, right?!*

Monday, March 14, 2011

2 years ago..

I said YES!!

Happy Engagement Anniversary, J!
Agreeing to marry you was the best decision I've ever made :) I love you!

Running with Dad {week2}

Saturday I woke up to go meet my dad at the same park at the same time (9am). It was 41 degrees with a slight breeze aka my perfect running weather. I wore capri workout pants and a tshirt and was confident as I had been stretching well and running just fine on the treadmill doing the C25K. Anyway, I started out with a goal to run to entire length of the fence on this track. I tried to do this last week but was just cut a little short; this week I was able to. So, I suppose that is making progress. Dad thinks it was a little under a mile the length of the fence.  After I made it the length of the fence my brain was like "ok, good job you're done." I wanted to keep going but I have still been fighting my shin splints. This time the pain was on the side of my right leg. When I was training for my 5k I was having shin problems and bought new shoes and they got better as I kept running. I was also using icy hot and tylenol. So I'm asking YOU, my dear readers, if you have any other advice that you think could help, please share!
So, after we were done running is when things started to go downhill. I got in my car to drive home and I started to just feel icky. I figured I was just achey from the run and I'd be okay. On my drive home, I got stopped by a train. Immediately, I opened my car door and threw up! Disgusting. I got home and rested on the couch and ate a banana. I seemed fine and went about my day. When I went to go to sleep at night I started feeling the same aches I was feeling after our run. Needless to say, I spent the night in the bathroom throwing up every few hours.
So Sunday was a no go for me. I was laid up on the couch all day with a low grade fever. It took all my energy to get up to do anything around the house. I felt (still do) guilty about missing the run because I had bigger goals to run longer. But I will make it up this week in the gym and go back harder on Saturday and Sunday to continue training for this 10k! 

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Non scale victory

Emotional describes today..I was overwhelmed at work, feeling unappreciated, lonely because my husband is working second shift right now, and just every other emotion under the sun. A year ago..maybe even two month ago..I would have headed to the Mcdonald's drive thru for a Big Mac, french fry, and large Dr.Pepper. And then I would feel better, right? Wrong.  
Today I am proud of myself. I didn't go straight to Mcdonalds. I went home, made a turkey sandwich, put my work out clothes on and went to the gym {after American Idol of course ;)}

I did week3, day2 of C25K and 300calories on the Arc Glider..I was having some shin issues {any tips?!} so it wasn't the best run, but I was feeling it. My heart rate was up and I was just letting go of any negativity that occured during the day and it was a wonderful feeling. Waaay better than any Big Mac :)

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Babies on the Brain

Oh my goodness gracious, this non-mama has babies on the brain. Maybe it's because because this month two years ago I found out I was pregnant with my first baby {rip 5-3-09} or because one of my favorite bloggers announced she is pregnant with TWINS!!..or because one of my other favorite blogger just had her sweet baby boy!..Or maybe because I add newborn babies on insurance plans all day long? Hmm anyway..the thought of cradeling a pecious, sweet baby of mine is wearing on my mind hard today.

Yet, my husband is still telling me to I suppose I will continue to WAIT..

I need to lose these last 40lbs anyway. That's what I will keep telling myself...

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Wedding Pictures

So, I realized I introduced myself as Former Fat Bride, but never really shared any wedding photos. Mainly because I'm embarrassed..for two reasons, 1) I really was a fat bride! Seriously pushing 240lbs in a wedding gown and 2) I was a budget savvy bride and hired a photographer off of Craigslist..WTF..anyway, my wedding day was amazing because..well, I married my best friend :o)
My bridesmaids were my sisters (left) and sister in law (right) these girls
Me and Jordan June 27, 2009
Mr. & Mrs.
First Dance "You and Me" Lifehouse
Former Fat Bride :)


Monday, March 7, 2011

Running with Dad {week1 recap}

Last week I blogged about how my Dad and I are going to start running to train for a 10k. The 10k is scheduled for June 4th so we started training this weekend to get our booties in gear.
Saturday- It was sooo freezing cold! We met up at the bike trail at 9am and stretched and started running. It was about 19 degrees out with a strong wind that made it feel even colder! I literally had tears and snot running down my face. Not pretty at all. Anyway, I would say we ran about 3/4 of a mile, turned around and ran back. The run back was better as we were not running into the wind. By the end of it, I almost felt like "that's it?!" but it was a good thing we took the first day slower because by mid afternoon I could already feel my shins and legs becoming sore.
{NOT me..ha}

Sunday- We met at the same time 9am (this is hard for me to do on the weekends ha) and this time took the run even further. I'd say..2 miles down and 2 miles back, but we didn't really track it so my estimations may be way off. This time I dressed warmer with a stocking cap and gloves. NOT a good idea. By the last few minutes of my run I was burning up! I know that is a good thing=calories burned, but as soon as I took off my stocking cap I felt the wind blow through my hair (cheesy, I know) and I just felt so much more refreshed. My dad is already running circles around me, but I know I'll be able to pick up the pace and be able to push myself harder next week.

My plan is to do the Couch to 5k program at the gym on the treadmill during the week and then just keep working on my distance running on the weekends with my dad. I think this will help me stamina for sure. Have a great week!

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Running with Dad

So, back in October I blogged about my Dad running a half marathon. He was awesome. Anyway, last night he called and asked what I thought about running with him in the Wichita Riverfest River Run. OK-I am no runner by any means. I posted a recap of my 1st 5k. I finished in 48 minutes and was pleased with that. But, I didn't continue running afterwards. I was over it. So when my dad asked me if I wanted to train for this run (I actually think it's a 10k?! not 100% sure.) I was like "uhh..." but I decided it was a good idea, because when I was training for my 5k the pounds were just melting off. I'm ready for that again! Plus, it's something my dad and I can do together!
We are going to train every Saturday and Sunday morning. He said whether it's raining, snowing or the sun shining we'll be out there! Ok, Dad! So, Sunday I will update with how our first days of training went. The run is on June 4, 2011!
Dad and I in Last Vegas December 2010

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Something new..

Since this blog is so handy dandy at keeping me accountable..
and since it is now March, I have a new experiment I'm going to test..
No Fast Food for the month of March.
You heard that right!
Not even for a salad or something I consider "healthy."
I will allow myself to eat out 1 time a week, but that is for Friday night date night/day with my husband, but no fast food.
I don't really feel like I have a "problem" with fast food, but it is getting to be too easy to swing by to get something "fast" when my husband is working second shift at the hospital, especially on Saturdays. 
So, who's with me on this one? 
Tonight I'm going to buy some stickers to put on my calendar for each day I go without the devil fast food. Childish, I know, but anything to hold me accountable :) Plus, I'm really missing those stickers that give out at Weight Watchers :)

Oh, one more goal for March: to lose 6lbs!!