uh oh..

Let me tell you about my long lost love:

Sonic's Rt 44oz Cranberry Limeaids

I loved these things. I was literally drinking 1-2 A DAY! I would usually go during their happy hour for 50% off, but sometimes it didn't even matter what time of day it was..if I wanted my Cranberry limeaid, I got it. In fact, right after my wedding reception before we went to our hotel for the night, we went to Sonic for a drink..wedding gown and all. See? I really was a fat bride.

So, when I started my "weight loss journey" I stopped drinking these bad boys. It was hard, but I knew they couldn't be good for you! And sure enough..

420 Calories-110g Sugar-90g Sodium-113g Carbs

hmm..

No wonder I was 240lbs!

Sickening.

 

Help

These cookies are going to be the death of me!

My little sister is in her last year of being an active Girl Scout so of course I made a hefty cookie purchase from her troop. But whyyy did I do that?! I should have just made a donation to the troop. Sometimes I don't think before I make an action. But, luckily I've been able to keep my cravings in check. Oh, and I have an awesome, supportive husband that hid them from me! And no, I haven't gone searching for them...yet anyway :)



Haircut

It's about that time of the year that I'm itching for a change. My husband said a new car is out of the question, so I opted for a haircut :) Jennifer Anniston got one..I needed one too :)

Here's before:

And now:

I'm lovin it, but I do feel like I need to be toting around a diaper bag and some kiddos. Now if I can only convince my husband that I need this:

{2011 Chrysler Sebring}

Then I will be ready for Spring!



I struggle..

Every.single.day !!!

Let's say it all together...

Weight loss is hard.

It is boring.

It is a full time job!

But..

It'll be worth it in the end.

But will I ever get to the "end?"

Anyway, obviously a lot is going through my head. I'm currently on day# 3 of low/no carbs/lean meat. I'm still fighting the temptations of wanting to eat everything in sight! I'm craving sugar like no other. Oh, and whyyy would my husband bake croissants last night?! He's cruel.

I'm hoping it'll be better by the weekend so that I won't be struggling so much on my days off. Ohh..the struggles..

Women's Health Magazine

Women's Health Magazine is updating their blogroll and it's your chance to nominate your favorite healthy/weight loss/inspiring blog. This is not a plea for myself to be nominated (although you can-if you'd like!) This is just to get word out there that your favorite blogs can be recognized. I know I voted for my faves- You should to! Click here to vote!

Words to live by..

"We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence, then, is not an act, but a habit."

~Aristotle

Just a little quote that I thought I'd share. My High School choir director used to recite this quote to us when he thought we weren't performing up to par. I ran across it today and it struck a chord..it was something I needed to see.

I want this healthiness journey become a habit, not just a fad, and I want to be excellent :)

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In other news:

Who's ready for The Real Housewives of Miami?!

umm..ME!

Why I'm thinking about quitting WW..

..gasp. I know, right?
So, I have been a member of Weight Watcher's since January 8, 2010 (2 failed times prior) and have lost 50lbs and 4 pant sizes. Weight Watcher's works {for me}..no doubt about that. The thing is..I have felt uninspired and unmotivated lately. I don't know if it's just me or if I'm just bored with the program..or bored with the meetings. Lately I literally dread going to my Friday meetings.

I don't want to wear my usual weigh in outfit every Friday morning.

I don't want to step in front of a scale in front of the receptionist to see I've lost .2, .4, etc.

I don't want to sit through the meetings while I'm hungry- I don't eat before my weigh in.

I don't want to pay $12.00 a week to "learn" the things I already know.

I don't want to sit through the meetings thinking "I know I could do this on my own.."

I think what it really boils down to is: I want to be "normal." I want to just be able to live a "normal, healthy" lifestyle. I don't want to have to worry about everything I put in my body. I want to be able to make exercise just a normal part of my daily life (which I believe it has become..) I want this to be a "lifestyle change" where I like it's second nature. For example, instead of feeling like "omg I want fried chicken!!..but I should have grilled chicken instead.." I want to just go straight to the grilled chicken! I think I'm getting a little off track..but, hopefully someone is following where I'm trying to get at!

I do have my fears. I think back to all my failed attempts after leaving WW. The first time I quit was May 2008. My older sister just found out she was pregnant with my nephew so she quit and I ate alongside with her throughout her pregnancy. The second time I quit WW I found out I was pregnant. Although my pregnancy ended in a miscarriage, I never re-joined (which I should have!). I think this time is different though; I'm not sure.

 I feel like I am more inspired by Mama Laughlin, Jen, a priorfatgirl and Slimming Down for the Gown (and tons more of bloggers out there!) than I am with the actual Weight Watcher's meetings. We'll see though. I think I will give it a trial run under the end of March and see how I'm doing.

Has anyone else ever felt this way??

10 fun facts about me..

I thought I'd switch it up today from all the workout, food, weight loss, goals, etc mumbo-jumbo and focus on myself today! ha

Here's 10 fun facts about me:

1. I failed driver's education! Ok, not really "failed," but my instructor called my parents and basically said he was scared to drive with me. I got a 'C' in the class! The only 'C' on my High School transcript. How embarrassing! I feel that I am a good driver btw :)

2. I "competed" in pageants from 2001-2006. I use the word competed lightly..mostly because I wasn't really competitive. I'm still trying to get to the root of why I wanted to parade around in ballgowns and be judged based on my looks for all those years, but I did and I had fun doing them. I was Miss Kansas Teen Photogenic 2004, 4th runner up Miss Kansas Teen 2005, 2nd runner up 2006. My family still makes fun of me for these "titles."

3. I dream of one day buying an old house and remodeling it, but still leaving the old charm.. Preferrably in the south.

4. I want to have children. Like, yesterday. BUT..it seems I will be waiting another 5 years until my husband is finished (or at least in his 3rd/4th year) of medical school.

5. I think seeing my baby sister go off to college in August will just about kill me. Not that I'm not proud of her, but I feel like I just want to keep her under my wing and protect her. The big, bad world is just that..a big, bad world :)

6. Both my sisters were/are involved in band and played various instruments..very talented. I, however, cannot carry a tune.

7. I have learned that marriage is hard work. You have to work at it everyday!! But, I've never been happier than when I'm spending my days with Jordan..doing just whatever.

8. This may be a far fetched dream, but I'd like to one day open up a wedding reception facility. Now, I'm not a business woman, but I would love to have a space to offer to brides to hold their wedding ceremony and/or reception. Maybe one day..

9. I wish I would have been more involved in the blog world when I was planning my "very budget savvy" wedding. I started reading The Budget Savvy Bride towards the end of my planning. Her blog seriously helped me so much with my feelings of having an inadequate wedding, because of how limited our budget was. I just wish I would have found it sooner!

10. I want to do a "trash the dress" wedding shoot in June when I'm closer to my goal weight. I can't believe my wedding dress was a size 20...barf.

Happy Thursday! Weigh in tomorrow :)

2011 Goals *update*

So, at the first of the year, like almost every other blogger, I posted my 2011 goals. I always have the best intentions on keeping these goals because I hate feeling disappointed in myself. I've decided to update once a month on how these little goals are working out for me and what I need to improve on. Here were my goals: bold is my update.

Lose at least 1 pound a week until I meet my goal weight of 150lbs. *I haven't lost 1lb a week, but I'm still on track to meeting my goal weight of 150. It is an everyday fight!*

Try to cook more and get more creative with meal plans. *I have cooked this year lol too bad they have all been pasta dishes. I'm still trying though*

Stay on Synthroid all year long. *I'm taking my medicine regularly with the exception of missing it a few times on the weekends. I feel no differently when on my medication, but that's okay. I have an appointment in April to see where my tsh levels are..hopefully they are "normal"*

Run another 5k. *Yea..about that..not even close*

Get more creative with my blog. *I'm trying! I did do the Accountability Experiment and have some ideas for exercise next month (think shred!)*

Save $12k in 2011 (that's $1000 a month and totally do-able if we stick to it!) *SO proud of me and my hubby on this! Currently, we are 20% over what we should already have saved at this point. Sure, taxes helped boost that, but hey! It's our money and I'm proud we are saving it instead of blowing it. Moving into the apartment has really helped in the savings department..oh, sacrifices..*

Find another company to work for that I feel happier with. (I WILL have a job change in 2011 one way or another!) *Now I'm not so sure this is going to happen..I had my yearly review and was given a raise and a nice little bonus that I was appreciative of. It would be hard walking away from the $$ especially since we are saving for my husband's medical schooling.*

Spend more time with my niece and nephew. *I have babysat twice since the New Year and love every single second I am with them!*

Grow my Scentsy business *It's been a rough start in 2011, but I'm sure business will pick back up after the release of the new Spring/Summer 2011 catalog coming out March 1st!!*

Organize my scrapbooking stuff and finally finish my wedding scrapbook! *Hasn't even crossed my mind..but I still have ten months, right?!*

In my dreams..

Tonight I will be dreaming of having..

having Carrie's legs..

Audrina's tummy..

Jennifer's arms..

and

Reeses' hair

Maybe one day my dream will be a reality?? Which means..I'll be back in the gym tomorrow-bleh, but it must be done!

WW weigh in 2-11-11

Ta-Da!! Peace out -50lbs!

I am feeling great about this, but I know I still have about -40lbs to go to get to my goal weight of 150lbs. But the light at the end of the tunnel doesn't seem so far away.

Here's some progress pics. Unfortunately, I didn't start taking pics until August 2010, but I've been on this journey since January 2010.

My hubby and I December 2009 240lbs

Me and my best friend August 2009..I didn't weight myself back then..all I know is I.look.disgusting.

I hope you all have a great weekend!

Pineapple Upside Down Shortcake recipe!

Let's say it all together...YUM!!!

I got this recipe out of the new Weight Watchers PointPlus Just 5 ingradients cookbook. As soon as I heard "just 5 ingradients" I knew I had to have it! So far it hasn't let me down.

So here is the recipe for the Pineapple Upside Down Shortcake.

Ingredients:

1/4 cup + 3 tsp brown sugar, 1/2 juice of a lemon, 1/2 tsp pumpkin-pie spice, 1 15oz pineapple chunks in juice (drained), 6 reduced fat buttermilk biscuits

1. preheat oven to 425. Spray 6 cup muffin pan.

2. mix brown sugar, lemon juice, pie spice among muffin cups.

3. top evenly with pineapple chunks.

4. add 1 biscuit to each cup and press along sides. 

5. bake until biscuits are golden brown, about 12 minutes. 

 *7p+ each shortcake*

Oh, and just because I'm proud..

Working on my New Year's Resolution..spending more time in the kitchen!

Accountability Experiment Day10

Ah, back in business with the Accountability Experiment. 7 days to go! Here's day 10:

Activia 2p+, New FiberPlus caramel coconut chocolate granola 3p+=Amazing..tastes JUST LIKE a Girl Scout Caramel Delight! yumm

mint chocolate mini delights 3p+, 2 servings Pringles 4p+, banana 0, Smart One 5p+

Finally found some VitaTops at Target 3p+..not too too impressed, but high in fiber for afternoon snack!

Corner of leftover pizza from SuperBowl party..pesto, grilled chicken, sundried tomatoes and feta cheese..I have no idea how to count this. 8p+??

Pineapple upside down shortcake..um YUM (recipe coming tomorrow :) 7p+

=

35/34 EEk over by one point. But maybe that pizza wasn't worth the whole 8p+?! HELP!

Reflection..

Sometimes..when I'm getting down on myself, thinking I'm not losing the weight fast enough..I need to take a step back and reflect..

Me and my husband October 2009- 240lbs

to where I am today..

And be OK with the NOW and keep striving for the FUTURE..

WW weigh in 2-4-11

-2.4 oh yea

.4 away from 50 POUNDS LOST

It's GOING to happen next week.

Oh yea!

Accountability Experiment Day9

I gave myself a little snow day yesterday so no pictures of my daily eats yesterdat, but I promise I didn't go over my allowed points :) Here's day 9:

Yummo- FiberOne chocolate and peanut butter granola 2P+

I've been counting these mini delights wrong! They are 3p+, banana 0

Activia 2p+, special K bar 2p+, LeanCuisine 6p+

*Not pictured snack size cheezits 6p+

Salad Bar..I don't know how to count this?? 8p+??

Skinny Cow ice cream sandwich 4p+

=

33/34 Weight Watchers PointPlus

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Tomorrow is weigh in so cross your fingers for me. I'd like at least a 2 pound loss after my gain from last week. See you guys tomorrow with the report!

Accountability Experiment Days 7 & 8

Sorry I missed you yesterday..I really have no excuses. Here's day 7:

Bleh- did NOT like this activia yogurt 2p+ (too many seeds) banana 0

OK- these are delish 4p+ too delish that I will not be buying them again. Too addicting and not satisfying..I want another one right after I eat this one so that can't be a good sign!

Leftovers 1cup 10p+, mini delights (yummo) 2p+

OK: major chicken finger craving after work before the blizzard came. BUT..I only ate 2 chicken strips and opted for green beans 0 instead of macaroni and cheese which I would have normall gotten. I don't know how to count these points so please correct me if I'm wrong...2 chicken strips 10p+, mashed potatoes 4p+

=

32/34 Weight Watchers PointPlus

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Day 8:

Mini delights 2p+, banana 0

These are so good...that I had 2. BLEH 8p+

Leftover 2 chicken strips 10p+, 2 servings of pringles 4p+

sweet tooth after being sent home from work for weather.. 4p+

One more serving...2p+

Lean Cuisine 6p+

=

36/34 YIKES I went over..sigh

Clearly I'm having cabin fever. I'm just sitting at home, trying to stay warm..and I'm finding myself searching the kitchen for something to eat at all times..having these ridiculous cravings..barely eating any fruits or vegetables. I could not be a stay at home mom {nothing again SAHM at all} because I would be double my size! Tomorrow will be better, right?