bottomless pit

Ever since I hit the 3rd trimester, I feel like I'm a bottomless pit. Seriously, it is an insane feeling..hunger..true hunger!! It makes me think back to when I thought I was hungry? Um no, nothing compared to this. I feel like I can never become satisfied.

1. I never exactly know what sounds good to eat. So I want it all. I don't just want Mexican food; I want Italian too. ...at the same time.
2. I want a snack. So I look at what I brought for lunch..peanut butter crackers or a banana? I pout a little...what I really want is a Snickers candy bar. So I fight myself over whether to stick to the healthier option or just splurge. Splurging usually wins lately.
3. I'm constantly thirsty. Good thing, I've been drinking a ton of water. Lately, I feel like I have to pee all.the.time. Seriously, I think my bladder is done for.

I've been trying my hardest to keep my hunger/craving under control though. I've been eating more protein in the mornings and more carbs during lunch to keep me fuller, longer. And of course, drinking a lot of water. It's still hard though..I want to eat everything in sight..no joke.

I had a really "off" day yesterday. The number on the scale is reallllly getting to me. I know gaining weight while pregnant is inevitable, but I really didn't think I was already going to be at 30lbs gained by 30 weeks pregnant. I didn't want that. Remember my goal? 1st trimester-5lbs, 2nd-10lbs, 3rd- 10lbs. Um yea, didn't meet that goal. I remember when I was battling infertility I would get so upset when women complained about pregnancy or complained about weight gain, when I'd be sitting there thinking really lady? You have no idea how much I'd LOVE to be in your shoes! and trust me, I feel terrible for complaining. I need to enjoy these last 8-10 weeks because I know I'm going to miss it. This may be the only baby I ever have. but the mental issue I have with the gaining weight is taking over my brain!!

I'll leave with a photo..30weeks2days in all its glory!