uh oh..

Let me tell you about my long lost love:

Sonic's Rt 44oz Cranberry Limeaids

I loved these things. I was literally drinking 1-2 A DAY! I would usually go during their happy hour for 50% off, but sometimes it didn't even matter what time of day it was..if I wanted my Cranberry limeaid, I got it. In fact, right after my wedding reception before we went to our hotel for the night, we went to Sonic for a drink..wedding gown and all. See? I really was a fat bride.

So, when I started my "weight loss journey" I stopped drinking these bad boys. It was hard, but I knew they couldn't be good for you! And sure enough..

420 Calories-110g Sugar-90g Sodium-113g Carbs

hmm..

No wonder I was 240lbs!

Sickening.

 

Help

These cookies are going to be the death of me!

My little sister is in her last year of being an active Girl Scout so of course I made a hefty cookie purchase from her troop. But whyyy did I do that?! I should have just made a donation to the troop. Sometimes I don't think before I make an action. But, luckily I've been able to keep my cravings in check. Oh, and I have an awesome, supportive husband that hid them from me! And no, I haven't gone searching for them...yet anyway :)



Haircut

It's about that time of the year that I'm itching for a change. My husband said a new car is out of the question, so I opted for a haircut :) Jennifer Anniston got one..I needed one too :)

Here's before:

And now:

I'm lovin it, but I do feel like I need to be toting around a diaper bag and some kiddos. Now if I can only convince my husband that I need this:

{2011 Chrysler Sebring}

Then I will be ready for Spring!



I struggle..

Every.single.day !!!

Let's say it all together...

Weight loss is hard.

It is boring.

It is a full time job!

But..

It'll be worth it in the end.

But will I ever get to the "end?"

Anyway, obviously a lot is going through my head. I'm currently on day# 3 of low/no carbs/lean meat. I'm still fighting the temptations of wanting to eat everything in sight! I'm craving sugar like no other. Oh, and whyyy would my husband bake croissants last night?! He's cruel.

I'm hoping it'll be better by the weekend so that I won't be struggling so much on my days off. Ohh..the struggles..

Women's Health Magazine

Women's Health Magazine is updating their blogroll and it's your chance to nominate your favorite healthy/weight loss/inspiring blog. This is not a plea for myself to be nominated (although you can-if you'd like!) This is just to get word out there that your favorite blogs can be recognized. I know I voted for my faves- You should to! Click here to vote!

Words to live by..

"We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence, then, is not an act, but a habit."

~Aristotle

Just a little quote that I thought I'd share. My High School choir director used to recite this quote to us when he thought we weren't performing up to par. I ran across it today and it struck a chord..it was something I needed to see.

I want this healthiness journey become a habit, not just a fad, and I want to be excellent :)

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In other news:

Who's ready for The Real Housewives of Miami?!

umm..ME!

Why I'm thinking about quitting WW..

..gasp. I know, right?
So, I have been a member of Weight Watcher's since January 8, 2010 (2 failed times prior) and have lost 50lbs and 4 pant sizes. Weight Watcher's works {for me}..no doubt about that. The thing is..I have felt uninspired and unmotivated lately. I don't know if it's just me or if I'm just bored with the program..or bored with the meetings. Lately I literally dread going to my Friday meetings.

I don't want to wear my usual weigh in outfit every Friday morning.

I don't want to step in front of a scale in front of the receptionist to see I've lost .2, .4, etc.

I don't want to sit through the meetings while I'm hungry- I don't eat before my weigh in.

I don't want to pay $12.00 a week to "learn" the things I already know.

I don't want to sit through the meetings thinking "I know I could do this on my own.."

I think what it really boils down to is: I want to be "normal." I want to just be able to live a "normal, healthy" lifestyle. I don't want to have to worry about everything I put in my body. I want to be able to make exercise just a normal part of my daily life (which I believe it has become..) I want this to be a "lifestyle change" where I like it's second nature. For example, instead of feeling like "omg I want fried chicken!!..but I should have grilled chicken instead.." I want to just go straight to the grilled chicken! I think I'm getting a little off track..but, hopefully someone is following where I'm trying to get at!

I do have my fears. I think back to all my failed attempts after leaving WW. The first time I quit was May 2008. My older sister just found out she was pregnant with my nephew so she quit and I ate alongside with her throughout her pregnancy. The second time I quit WW I found out I was pregnant. Although my pregnancy ended in a miscarriage, I never re-joined (which I should have!). I think this time is different though; I'm not sure.

 I feel like I am more inspired by Mama Laughlin, Jen, a priorfatgirl and Slimming Down for the Gown (and tons more of bloggers out there!) than I am with the actual Weight Watcher's meetings. We'll see though. I think I will give it a trial run under the end of March and see how I'm doing.

Has anyone else ever felt this way??